DEPRESSION
“When someone is without hope,
because they see there is no cause for hope,
there is hope.”
Jed McKenna
From the standpoint of waking up, depression is a good thing. It may not be fun, but who said waking up was supposed to be fun? Oh mind, right, that sneaky phantom bastard. Actually when I hear someone is seriously depressed I get happy for them. I know it is a powerful moment. I don’t want to help them get out of it, get them to a happy place or tell them it is all going to be all right and work out for them (like their so called friends will do). I want to show them the truth of depression, to sink as deep in depression as possible. Hopefully sink into the depth of truth. That truth when glimpsed is depressing for the ego. Some external force has made perception step back for a moment and see what is really going on here. When we can’t even get out of bed because we feel “what is the use, nothing matters anyway”- we are seeing beyond the bubble of the false self, that there is no “me” for anything to matter to. I mean how more depressing a realization can you get? Most just find reasons to pop out again and play fairy tale me, others pop themselves full of pills because some professional says depression is bad- until something else plunges them right back into the same place. Depression is one of the trap doors to see out of the trap of separation and control, thus the establishment must stop all such peeking.
“Despair is jut a part of the formulae for cracking your head open.”
Richard Rose
When one gets to the place of suicide it may not be that they could no longer bear the pain of their world, but sometimes because they were glimpsing beyond it. So frightening was the look- no self- that the best message they could get, “kill yourself” came through, But mind twisted that around to hold its last form of control, the belief that mind could control the final act of killing your physical body in the dream. I have talked with many former people who attempted suicide, and they begin to laugh when I tell them that they could not even control killing themselves. They did not even have control of that.
The message mind is twisting around for its own benefit has nothing to do with killing your form. The message was to kill “yourself,” the very I that says “I” have a problem. If there is no I, then I can not be sad, I can not be angry, I can not be upset. This does not mean that you may not experience anger, sad, frustration, but it will have nothing to grab onto, and you can just watch the emotion rise and fall without letting it take you over. The problem is dependant on an I to own it, or it is just another experience for form. Depression is meant to be a like a sprinter’s starting block to get us to go kill the very I that has been controlling our life to date. Go past this idea of killing the body, go look for the self that tells you that you are a body in the first place. To have experiences in the dream you need a form, but those experiences do not need a phantom owner. You don’t rid the body to be free, you rid the self so the body can be free.
A happy person is trapped in a good dream. A sad person is trapped in a bad dream. A depressed person sees there is no hope of ever being happy. An awake person has bust through the depression to see there is no person at all. Thus examine depression and use it in a very different way than you have been taught. Depression is not bad or evil, it’s just a part of getting out of the dream.