You Have No Personality!
With a title like that, you know a good article is coming. It was about 6 months ago while in Europe that I stopped in to see an energy healer about a few different things happening with my body at the time. I had never met her, so she knew nothing of me. After about 10 minutes into her energy session she turned to me with a shocked look on her face and said, "Something is wrong with you…wait, you have no personality!" I just smiled at her. "This is a big problem, you have to have a personality, what did you do to yours?"
As you can well guess I was laughing quite hard at this exchange, but on the inside, I pretended to be interested in what she was saying. One of the things energy readers do of course is to check the energetic form of the personality- part of the ego self, to see what needs to be done. I am sure I was the first one to come to her where she couldn't FIND a personality, so figured of course something had to be wrong with me. And of course there is, but how could you tell it to someone. Yes I have no personality anymore, or the personality that was here died- and nothing has come along to replace it. That possibility does not even exist for people, even the spiritual crowd, it is often best to just gloss over the concept. Jed examines a little of this concept in chapter 34 of Spiritually Incorrect Enlightenment.
So what happens when the thing you always thought of you is dead? Great question, and to be honest, I'm not sure. Before I always knew who I was- my personality. So now this death and realization thing comes along, and now what? No more personality? So who is sitting here writing these words? To be honest I have no idea. Howdie Mickoski is dead, and this form thing has a new name (which I only use privately with a few people)- but I kept the outward name, and of course kept the same body. So I look the same as before, people expect me to be the same "guy" they used to know 1-2-5-9 years ago- BUT.
The old is gone, and it seems like nothing has really come to replace it. So you say, ok just go back to playing the old personality. Well that's not so easy. I tried that for a while, and it was nearly impossible- and all that happened is the form got sicker and sicker. Like trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. Lets say the dna is still thinking like the old- people I bump into are still trying to force me with their thoughts (I can feel it) to be what they remember me to be, want me to be. It is so much I can hardly be around anyone who knew me prior to 2005 at all, and prior to 1997 when the process began- almost impossible.
So here I am, confirmed that I have no personality. Bizarre really don't you think? And a new one isn't just manifesting from out of the sky. So I guess this thing is just sitting here- getting empty, or like a tube as the native Lakota medicine men would say. So when you find out you no longer have your personality-
What to do?